Falling apart

I thought I could do this
I Thought I knew I couldn't miss
Looks as though I couldn't handle it
no matter how hard i try, nothing really seems to fit
Love helps, but only just a lil bit
on my wrist i make a slit
dont judge me for not feeling shit
I look at you I wana spit
whats wrong with me? Where do i start?
uhm how about this,
the whole freakin world is fallin' apart!
now do you see, do you understand
a puddle of blood in the palm of my hand
Feeling faint, i can hardley stand
Leave me be, by my demand
All I can do is let pain expand
at me you throw punches and I let them land
I sink down into my bloodstained seat
my body droops as i consede defeat
hello death, yoru my best friend
your holding my hand, when the fighting ends